6AA Today 6AA folks met up @ MacDonalds (7pm) to discuss about our KL trip plus to help Keli out with her appeal for JC.

Finally we paid the 300 bucks deposit and tmr we will confirm the hotel reservations, etc. Settled! So looking forward to it! It's the first time we went overseas together. Rather exciting.

Afterwhich we went HL for some shopping and walking around (crappy...)

Then we went back to Mac for another round of chatting and eating. That's when we realised that almost two-fifth of 6AA folks got into TJC. (TJCians rocks) It was really amazingly awesome to be reunited once again.

Okie, today's entry is lame and uninteresting so I'll stop here. I'm bushed anyway.. Nites.  ¶ 11:50 PM 0 Comments

  Lost Everytime I tell myself to forget you it becomes harder and harder to breathe. I lose myself to you when I try to fight it with my mind. I thought I could but now I know I can't. But I don't want to give up myself and be desperate for you because I never was and I don't plan to be.

Why does it baffles me that I've not received any calls from you lately? Am I obsessing? I hope I'm not but the absence of you in my life makes me more and more curious about this unusual feeling. I just can't get you out of my head and everytime I try to, trust me it just gets harder. All I ask is a way to skip pass this phase of life and move on and is that too much to ask? I don't know what to think anymore. I need a clue. I'm ready to go back once you let me know you are ready for me once again. I hope I'm not just a bootycall.  ¶ 10:00 PM 0 Comments

  Suffocating It's a torture to be around with him. I hate him so much that it just irks me to even feel his presence; it's disgusting.

On the other hand, I feel so lost when I keep thinking of what to do next. I don't know whether to pull away or take a step forward. Difficult to decide when you can't think clearly and unfortunately, most people are not exactly that capable in forgetting the past. Many resist the changes they need to make while few find the power in themselves to embrace the memories. When people are in need of a sign, they turn to things around them like friends or family. Some even resort to taking up new faiths and loyals to religions. But when you have nothing, or rather no one you can pour your heart to, it is pathetic. Yet, I don't wish to acknowledge this shortcoming of my own which is difficult to overcome. Nevertheless, I believe in the strength of oneself and I know I am powerful. Powerful enough to hold back myself when tears want to flow, when I want to pick up the phone to call you or even just to think of you. I know I can, all I need to do is to convince myself that I am all that I need.  ¶ 12:54 AM 0 Comments

  Wad the hell. haha this is my nth blog and i thought this was necessary for me to kill some time during this one month holiday

i'm so enjoying life now. i have time to watch tv, listen to music, watch videos (many many many videos) and play some stupid games and most importantly, the time to write.

Christmas draws near, a festival of hope and light and bliss. My fav! But it signifies a start of a new year - sch break's over.

That stupid spring thingy in my teeth has broken down AGAIN. I loathe the long waits, travelling and pungent smell of the dental clinic (specifically the powdered gloves). *vomits* End of month indicates freedom cos i can finally remove tt thingy. woohoo haha..

FYI:
The history of Christmas dates back over 4000 years. Many of our Christmas traditions were celebrated centuries before the Christ child was born. The 12 days of Christmas, the bright fires, the yule log, the giving of gifts, carnivals(parades) with floats, carolers who sing while going from house to house, the holiday feasts, and the church processions can all be traced back to the early Mesopotamians.

Many of these traditions began with the Mesopotamian celebration of New Years. The Mesopotamians believed in many gods, and as their chief god - Marduk. Each year as winter arrived it was believed that Marduk would do battle with the monsters of chaos. To assist Marduk in his struggle the Mesopotamians held a festival for the New Year. This was Zagmuk, the New Year's festival that lasted for 12 days.
The Mesopotamian king would return to the temple of Marduk and swear his faithfulness to the god. The traditions called for the king to die at the end of the year and to return with Marduk to battle at his side.

To spare their king, the Mesopotamians used the idea of a "mock" king. A criminal was chosen and dressed in royal clothes. He was given all the respect and privileges of a real king. At the end of the celebration the "mock" king was stripped of the royal clothes and slain, sparing the life of the real king.

The Persians and the Babylonians celebrated a similar festival called the Sacaea. Part of that celebration included the exchanging of places, the slaves would become the masters and the masters were to obey.

Early Europeans believed in evil spirits, witches, ghosts and trolls. As the Winter Solstice approached, with its long cold nights and short days, many people feared the sun would not return. Special rituals and celebrations were held to welcome back the sun.
In Scandinavia during the winter months the sun would disappear for many days. After thirty-five days scouts would be sent to the mountain tops to look for the return of the sun. When the first light was seen the scouts would return with the good news. A great festival would be held, called the Yuletide, and a special feast would be served around a fire burning with the Yule log. Great bonfires would also be lit to celebrate the return of the sun. In some areas people would tie apples to branches of trees to remind themselves that spring and summer would return.
The ancient Greeks held a festival similar to that of the Zagmuk/Sacaea festivals to assist their god Kronos who would battle the god Zeus and his Titans.

The Roman's celebrated their god Saturn. Their festival was called Saturnalia which began the middle of December and ended January 1st. With cries of "Jo Saturnalia!" the celebration would include masquerades in the streets, big festive meals, visiting friends, and the exchange of good-luck gifts called Strenae (lucky fruits).

The Romans decked their halls with garlands of laurel and green trees lit with candles. Again the masters and slaves would exchange places.

"Jo Saturnalia!" was a fun and festive time for the Romans, but the Christians though it an abomination to honor the pagan god. The early Christians wanted to keep the birthday of their Christ child a solemn and religious holiday, not one of cheer and merriment as was the pagan Saturnalia.

But as Christianity spread they were alarmed by the continuing celebration of pagan customs and Saturnalia among their converts. At first the Church forbid this kind of celebration. But it was to no avail. Eventually it was decided that the celebration would be tamed and made into a celebration fit for the Christian Son of God.

Some legends claim that the Christian "Christmas" celebration was invented to compete against the pagan celebrations of December. The 25th was not only sacred to the Romans but also the Persians whose religion Mithraism was one of Christianity's main rivals at that time. The Church eventually was successful in taking the merriment, lights, and gifts from the Saturanilia festival and bringing them to the celebration of Christmas.

The exact day of the Christ child's birth has never been pinpointed. Traditions say that it has been celebrated since the year 98 AD. In 137 AD the Bishop of Rome ordered the birthday of the Christ Child celebrated as a solemn feast. In 350 AD another Bishop of Rome, Julius I, choose December 25th as the observance of Christmas.  ¶ 12:33 AM 0 Comments