Lost Everytime I tell myself to forget you it becomes harder and harder to breathe. I lose myself to you when I try to fight it with my mind. I thought I could but now I know I can't. But I don't want to give up myself and be desperate for you because I never was and I don't plan to be.

Why does it baffles me that I've not received any calls from you lately? Am I obsessing? I hope I'm not but the absence of you in my life makes me more and more curious about this unusual feeling. I just can't get you out of my head and everytime I try to, trust me it just gets harder. All I ask is a way to skip pass this phase of life and move on and is that too much to ask? I don't know what to think anymore. I need a clue. I'm ready to go back once you let me know you are ready for me once again. I hope I'm not just a bootycall.  ¶ 10:00 PM