Slap yourself - Meeting Goals 30 JULY 2006

Okie dokie! Let's start the brainwash now!

According to some genius' (actually me) philosophy, the first step to reaching your goals is to set your goals. Omg how true is tt. hahaha..

Here goes:

Target for PROMOS:

General Paper: C --> A/B (hopefully an A but it's really hard you see!)
Physics: D --> A
Chemistry: S --> C
Math: E --> C
Economics: B --> A

The first grade was my JCT grade and the latter will be, shall be, MUST be my Promos grade.


You see, I'm exceptionally weak in Chem and Math (arghhhhhh..............) so it's time I started to change this. Erm.. for starters, let's do Math.

Aim: Complete tutorials by myself from now onwards. (okie this may seem like an understatement to all but it's an entirely different thing to me!!!!!)



I wan a bright future. I wanna study in UOCambridge. I wanna get scholarship. I wanna be the cream of the crops!










WELL...............................



it all starts now!





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  i'm chinese-enabled now. YAY.. 終於可以寫華文了

哈哈


感謝恩嬌 aka 不要臉女王!!!!!!!   ¶ 9:57 PM 0 Comments

  喂喂 可以嗎  ¶ 7:48 PM 0 Comments

  kelly clarkson. i totally love kelly clarkson! her "breakaway" album (though released eons ago) is still rocking my stereos!

one of my fav songs: walk away!

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  PW WRITTEN REPORT.



Completed. (My part at least) HAHAHA






elated!   ¶ 1:55 PM 0 Comments

  30 JULY 2006, SUNDAY
(omg i've got to manually type this in!??)


currently working on my PW written report.. i'm doing the analysis and evaluation part.


omg i completely love doing analysis. it sets my mind thinking... haha

you see, you gotta keep exercising your brains before they start decaying. perhaps keeping myself occupied is the only way to feel less guilty over not studying...?? haha... heck. i don't really feel like studying/ mugging at all... the whole motivation crap is not having any effects on me. =((



can anyone teach me how to enable chinese-viewing on the blog???? i dun wan the strings of question mark and weird symbols appearing whenever i feel like typing chinese here. okie, i'm effectively bilingual =) HAHAHA........ kidding la....

i cannot speak chinese from a script (just as the Tianjin presentation =.=) nor read chinese newspapers..... but i can occasionally write a few lines of wisdom. i mean anything from me is acutely profound and intelligent. =))



back to the written report part, i was freaking afraid that we will not meet the word limit but to my surprise, i already have 900++ words when my part is only half-done. i'm only doing chapter 4!! you see i got the tendency to keep elaborating and over-developing. this is evident from my essays where you see ultra long paragraphs. ms lim (my gp tutor) reminded me not to over develop cos i'll shortchange other paragraphs which are equally important. haha...... as a matter of fact she's right. but i can't stand seeing my essay too short....... it just feels weak. i mean development = adding meat to my script wad.......... you can't blame me then; i'm a MEAT LOVER!! (",) hahaha.......






most wanna-watch film, period: THE LAKEHOUSE.
starring Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock.

i think the theme and concept of the film is really fresh and unconventional.

abt the cross-dimensional kinda love... two souls living exactly 2 yrs apart, hanging all their hopes of love by a mailbox. how sweet is tt!


but i predict next wk to be quite tiring (there's napha and all )


and now i've got a couple of assignments to rush through!!

- chem concept maps (half done)
- written report (processing........................... ^.^)
- econs essay outline (erm, wad's the qn??)
- math tutorial (which i can't rmb where i threw!)

there's sth else but i can't recall.




you know there are times where you feel you've reached the primetime of your life and when you lie on your bed and heave a sigh... you feel the mental and physical tireness but somehow, you realise you've worked so hard for nothing valuable in life as reward...


how come????


actually, on a serious note, how do we determine if we're at the golden age of life. (okie, maybe i'm too young to talk abt golden age HAHA)

is your level of happiness a good indicator of "good life"?
or is it what you've accomplished and the satisfaction derived from those accomplishment?

being happy seem to be an extremely easy job for me. as long as things aren't too difficult to bear or withstand, i feel relatively comfortable in life. so does this make me happy? haha..


guess so.


seeking contentment is probably the way to utmost happiness. some may want a 100% for some math test but to me, a 60% would make me reasonably elated! HAHA........ see my point, i'm contented with a mere 60%. but to others, an 80% may be the worse score in their lives (wth)
so again, such things vary from individual to individual.



don't you feel being "happy", as superficial as it may be, is the HAPPIEST emotion in the whole wide world??????????

take everything in your stride and you'll realise nothing is too difficult/ worth brooding over.


ya, i think happiness is almost a good gauge to measure your level of satisfaction of life. of cos there are other factors such as ..... ..... ....... okie i can't think of any right now.








wadevA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



okie, shan't keep crapping.


start mugging; quit bugging!

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  omg



horrible singing. off-tune blending. weak harmonies. tt's the SAS (st andrew school i think) choir guys. michie and i were like looking at each other with the "are they freakin out of tune" face.. haha.. then we were like being lame and all.. kinda cannot stand the sas performance. and they were doing the opening......... it's like how lousy can it get.

no one clapped for their 1st song. it was total silence after their first piece. =.= damn pathetic



fortunately, SAJS (SA junior sch) and SAJC itself saved the day.

the junior sch boys were incredibly adorable la... gosh.. and they seriously can sing pretty well.. rather impressive for kids their age. they had the high notes and all plus it was entertaining as well.. with the cute nursery rhyme kinda songs.. blah.

but i feel the jc choral could have planted some mics somewhere cos the vocals weren't strong enough. not as powerful as tj's choir. i was blown away by tj one la... (no biasness here ^.^) hahaha.. they should project more!




after the concert, xx, mich, grass, julie and me were contemplating where to go to chill/ catch up. after much persuasion and seduction (HAHA), they succumbed to our (Grass and me actually) requests and we headed kovan mac.



hanged around for like an hour or so.... xx was saying she's gonna take up hospitality in poly instead of carrying on the stressful and unbearable life in jc (particularly mj). considering i've heard so many negative comments on mj, i think its a rather good move. numerous ppl have said mj is a complete lifeless sch and the retainee rate there is exceptionally high.. (oh wow wads new)




eventually, it leads me to wanna compare TJ and MJ style of education.

tj is kinda more liberal than mj cos we have lots of extra activities that are nt part of a lvl syllabuses. theres more freedom and space for your own exploration and i think the sch allows u to do things at your own pace. (erm... to me this is the case)

possibly becos, tjcians are supposed to be smarter (reckon its the top 5 jc)


naturally, intelligent ppl have the luxury to squander time with less opportunity costs involved. (econs??? hahaha)



i'm nt saying meridiens are nt the cut out for studying. i mean they are, just tt it's the sch doing the work for them.


which jc pushes their students so hard, to the point where students lose aim and purpose in the sch?

there's too much control the sch beholds and hence leading to the young minds of young adults losing power over themselves. consequently, they look for another avenue to escape, from reality.



this is the paradox in this issue. teachers want students to excel and while doing so, they try a myriad of medication on students. different bodies have different response to this. as for some, the drastic effects are shown from the way they try to deny their purposes in sch. leaving their distressed minds unattended..... seeking another pathway to an alternate reality...


this kinda things happen often to ppl who are mentally weaker or rather vulnerable and susceptible to external environment changes (for e.g. yours truly).. there are moments where you lack faith and security in yourself that you regard outside changes as the ideal behaviour. becoming insignificant to yourself resulting in diminishing self-esteem and confidence..


giving up might be the only solution to this problem.............??


as challenging as it may seem, we, as cliche as possible, must fight on and stay strong. however, generally, some just lack the motivation to strive on and battle agst all odds. this tiresome war agst sth u completely detest makes it all the more difficult and arduous.





what is the best way out of these problems?



perhaps the answer becomes different again, for each individual. u can choose:
- escape?
- face it head-on?
- take a u-turn?
- pause. think, plan. take a deep breath. view it from a different angle?
- ignore and be a third party of your life? pretend the non-existent of this stumble/hurdle?


hahaha... isn't life tricky, challengin, difficult and SUCKY???

why issit tt happy and joyous moment always seem so short-lived while painful and depressing period seem to last forever???


it's the psychological thingy going on in us..................... isn't it?



haiya........ to me, the easiest way to stay happy is to be a child for a day. just completely disregard your problems and not think too much into it.... take it as it is from the surface.... bitch abt it... just dun read between the lines...... ring up a friend and gossip the most superficial things (or widely known as to bitch) ......... hate anyone u wan...... just BE CHILDISH!!!


i think this saves lotsa headache doesnt it? hahahahhahaha~~~~~~~~~  ¶ 11:45 PM 0 Comments

  this is like a totally gay skin.


well, at first i thought it was pretty good. cos i love the overlapping and cluttered pics altogether. the mess is rather attractive dun u think.



anws i rushed home immediately the sch gate was opened.. totally miss gg home right after lessons.. i need my afternoons at home to watch tv and play with my pup. havent played my ps2 for so long already.. i think there's like a 1 cm layer of dust enveloping the casing..


suddenly i have this urge to play crazy taxi but its a damn old game........ totally non-existent in most shops.




"accept" and "Change" are the two most difficult skills to master.

how often do we embrace the differences we see amongst people and treat them like they are part of us? how often do we, sincerely, welcome people who are different into our lives? to most of us, these are difficult or even impossible to implement. we want people to accept us and treat us indifferently yet we're not willing to change ourselves to adapt to their style. this is the irony we cannot surmount.

on a similar note, rational human beings are often unable or rather reluctant to change themselves to suit the environment. most of us think our very own perspective of life is the most accurate and this mindset holds so strongly that it becomes our fact of life. still, it might seem as a total opposite behaviour from others' point of view. not everyone see eye to eye regarding how you lead your life and you may think it's "none of their business". coaxing from others generally have little or negligible effect on us and it's becos we don't wish to change ourselves becos of what others think. there is this "me-issue" inside everyone and tt leads to most of us being self-centred. regardless of how your behaviour can affect others, we become selfish living creatures. of cos this belongs to the extreme category. sometimes, it's actually best to stick to your own stand and opinions. don't be easily swayed or overly trusting/ concerned of others' words.

becos, like i always say, you are the determinant of your life, your future.





i love myself! hahaha  ¶ 1:29 PM 0 Comments

  omg


you cannot believe how slack i am these couple days
i mean its like gee.
totally can't pull myself together and start promo revision (gosh has anyone started??)
well, considering i didn't study much for jct and yet produce satisfactory results (to me, at least)
promos will be a breeze... -self-affirming- haha.. i'm nt being cocky or wad.. just hoping for the best for myself.



being a president is just plain irritating. we keep getting late notice for projects and upcoming visits. for example, we had to make a powerpoint presentation in CHINESE 4 days prior the actual event. i mean its like ridiculous right. where has all the planning and preparation teachers taught (i mean teach) us. ironically, they do not practise themselves. argh.. okie considering the ms cheah said we did quite a gd job within this short time period, i forgive her.

next up, this grp of taiwanese (omg eyes brightly lit) are coming but they are gg to view the freakingly boring kronos and library. wth. who cares????????????????????????? nvm, as student professionals in the tourism industry, we shall uphold singaporeans' image as being frenly, courteous and capable.






anws, i pon-ned sch this morn. went back during lunch.
i wanted to pon gp and pw as well la but then cannot la... my pw grp w/o me will die. nt tt i'm v impt (actually i am) but i know its my responsibility to keep the grp working.

another reason i went back was for chem spa skill D. it's like easy daooooo. dun even wanna talk abt it.



brought doby's photoshoot photos for the class to see..

"y your dog cock-eyed" said YX, bekah, huiping.

i was like "wadeva lo".


haha.. but still i was overwhelmed with the generous praises received.. damn proud of my young, annoyingly adorable and intelligent pup. love him loads. doby rocks.



happily, i skipped math test today with no sense of conscience or wadsoeva at all. hahaha..

i just hate math la. and enjiao actually wanna take h3 math when her results @ mj is like lan daoooo. hahaha.. oops (was i too loud???)






on a completely unrelated topic ........................

there are something i wanna say but to no one whom i can speak with. not becos i have no faith or trust in my frens but this is just too difficult and awkward to mention in any casual conversation.


sigh..


trying not to brood over it already. i can save myself, i know it.







to end on a happy note, at least i feel a little more rejuvenated after a long slp today. nt v long though. got more time for myself! haha.. lammmmmmeeeeeee........

gg for SA choir concert tmr. xx's gg w her choir. juliet's gg w her choir. tt leaves me w michelle. LUCKILY, if not i'll be like so sorang. dotsssss......  ¶ 11:21 PM 0 Comments