Past choices I'm awake at 2.30am and have completely nothing to do. That got me to read some messages I've received over the past two years and I realise I've been missing out so many opportunities to do something different. I really had known quite a number of contacts who can probably change my life but why didn't I do anything about them? Was I too young and/or afraid?

What about now? I certainly am not that young to be considered unable to take up responsibilities for my own actions. So, am I afraid? The unknown is always dark and sometimes terrifying. How do we learn the ability to select our choices and not be afraid of the consequences?

I can't help but wonder the difference it would make to my life if I had chosen the alternatives. I always imagine life like an ongoing recording. From time to time, it would be nice to be able to rewind and view it from outside your body and probably influence yourself back then and see how things can turn out in other ways.

Are our lives scripted? Here comes the age-old question: is this our destiny? Can we choose a different script, something that's out of the ordinary? Are we granted such a powerful tool of choosing all the time?

As an attempt to reconnect with my past and do as much as technology allows, I sent some emails to further certain (experimental) relationships.

Just to remind: taking chances is probably encouraged but one can only be prepared to bear the after-effects if the faith doesn't pay off.  ¶ 2:31 AM