Sunday, April 19, 2009
Message from TAIWAN:
Currently using I-net from camp. Haven't blogged for some time, thought I'd have something worthy to say.
Experience this time round is so different - different friends, job scope and grievances. HA. Nah, it ain't that bad, worse things could happen.
I got to thinking with all the spare time I had lingering ard: Does it pay off to be straightforward about our own feelings? Or are we better off being in the dark/ sugar-coating all the facts of life? Do we always have to say the truth even when we expect a certain degree of hurt that can be derived from the act of telling the truth itself? What if it's just our way of protecting ourselves from unnecessary damage? The contemporary belief is to just be open and speak your thoughts regardless of possible ramifications, because at least you can tell yourself you've tried and whatever comes next will not in any way, weigh you down i.e. the ball is in the other party's court. Not saying it out doesn't necessitate lying - it's just silence.
But when it comes to the matters of the heart, what are we expected to do; what are the guidelines? Here comes the nagging question of the Heart vs the Head. Can there be rational love? Or is it always inexplicably mysterious? Would one be tagged as unromantic if he/she used more logic in love than people'd expect? We all yearn for the crazy love that consumes us but how realistic is that? It's rare and so obscure that we learn to adapt to not having it altogether. Has this inevitably cut our romantic touch with other human beings? Being clear-headed probably would prevent us from committing stupid mistakes that we'll live to regret.
But I really do admire those who can muster the courage to be true with their feelings, take that leap of faith and be open about themselves. No expectations; just a need to be truthful. I haven't thought of doing anything like this and I'm guessing this is why I've been single all my life (thus far). Years of cynicism hasn't really completely diminished my optimism towards love, I still seek it though I know it's really hard for me to actually appreciate another person in my life. But I remain faithful. Hopeful even. Because I know when something as magical happens, I won't let myself down. ¶ 11:17 PM
Currently using I-net from camp. Haven't blogged for some time, thought I'd have something worthy to say.
Experience this time round is so different - different friends, job scope and grievances. HA. Nah, it ain't that bad, worse things could happen.
I got to thinking with all the spare time I had lingering ard: Does it pay off to be straightforward about our own feelings? Or are we better off being in the dark/ sugar-coating all the facts of life? Do we always have to say the truth even when we expect a certain degree of hurt that can be derived from the act of telling the truth itself? What if it's just our way of protecting ourselves from unnecessary damage? The contemporary belief is to just be open and speak your thoughts regardless of possible ramifications, because at least you can tell yourself you've tried and whatever comes next will not in any way, weigh you down i.e. the ball is in the other party's court. Not saying it out doesn't necessitate lying - it's just silence.
But when it comes to the matters of the heart, what are we expected to do; what are the guidelines? Here comes the nagging question of the Heart vs the Head. Can there be rational love? Or is it always inexplicably mysterious? Would one be tagged as unromantic if he/she used more logic in love than people'd expect? We all yearn for the crazy love that consumes us but how realistic is that? It's rare and so obscure that we learn to adapt to not having it altogether. Has this inevitably cut our romantic touch with other human beings? Being clear-headed probably would prevent us from committing stupid mistakes that we'll live to regret.
But I really do admire those who can muster the courage to be true with their feelings, take that leap of faith and be open about themselves. No expectations; just a need to be truthful. I haven't thought of doing anything like this and I'm guessing this is why I've been single all my life (thus far). Years of cynicism hasn't really completely diminished my optimism towards love, I still seek it though I know it's really hard for me to actually appreciate another person in my life. But I remain faithful. Hopeful even. Because I know when something as magical happens, I won't let myself down. ¶ 11:17 PM
