Sunday, August 24, 2008
The last two days were really exhausting - had my live firings two days straight and the weather, the mood, the tiredness made the whole situation even worse. Well, at least I did spend some really good time with my army friends. Thank goodness I wasn't like transferred to some other crappy places. Wk 1 down, wk 2 here I come. -.-
Is there anything wrong to say that I'm really not the relationship type of person? Putting others before myself or saying someone else's name 50x a day are not things I would wanna do. And yea this is probably too selfish, too self-loving but who cares? Cos there's a difference between being alone and being lonely. I'm just alone but not the latter. There's so many things to do when you're on your own. I can shop alone, spend my money on myself, eat what I want to, watch MY shows, and just have my own friends to tolerate with or worrying that whatever you say is going to change his/her opinion of you. Hah. There's no need for the extra comfort or tenderness from someone else; the source can be self-sustained.
The key is to be happy about yourself - fantastic looks, fantastic apparels and personality, great intelligence, engaging hobbies and interests - will help muster all the confidence you should have in yourself. The lack thereof doesn't mean you can't be happy either, just that it makes it slightly tougher. It depends on your own standards in that case. Just bring it down a notch. Some butt ugly ppl are incredibly confident cos they see themselves in a different light. So learn from them and you know, comparing yourself with someone worse-off really gives you some sort of relief and warmth that we all secretly hide. Don't pretend to be a saint and label this behaviour as evil and insensitive. We are made to feel - good and bad. So why skip a chance to feel better about yourself at someone else's expense when that other person is not affected negatively in any way. There's no fault in that because you could be the "worse-off" someone use as a subject of comparison. Don't feel guilty, don't feel bad. What comes around goes around; it's a mere cycle of life. ¶ 4:50 PM
Is there anything wrong to say that I'm really not the relationship type of person? Putting others before myself or saying someone else's name 50x a day are not things I would wanna do. And yea this is probably too selfish, too self-loving but who cares? Cos there's a difference between being alone and being lonely. I'm just alone but not the latter. There's so many things to do when you're on your own. I can shop alone, spend my money on myself, eat what I want to, watch MY shows, and just have my own friends to tolerate with or worrying that whatever you say is going to change his/her opinion of you. Hah. There's no need for the extra comfort or tenderness from someone else; the source can be self-sustained.
The key is to be happy about yourself - fantastic looks, fantastic apparels and personality, great intelligence, engaging hobbies and interests - will help muster all the confidence you should have in yourself. The lack thereof doesn't mean you can't be happy either, just that it makes it slightly tougher. It depends on your own standards in that case. Just bring it down a notch. Some butt ugly ppl are incredibly confident cos they see themselves in a different light. So learn from them and you know, comparing yourself with someone worse-off really gives you some sort of relief and warmth that we all secretly hide. Don't pretend to be a saint and label this behaviour as evil and insensitive. We are made to feel - good and bad. So why skip a chance to feel better about yourself at someone else's expense when that other person is not affected negatively in any way. There's no fault in that because you could be the "worse-off" someone use as a subject of comparison. Don't feel guilty, don't feel bad. What comes around goes around; it's a mere cycle of life. ¶ 4:50 PM
